Happy 23rd' SINGLE ! 

Dear Diary, 

Oh, where do I begin? A month passed being on my own . My single life finally started ! Once again, I'm back again with the 23rd' post but this time is my single post. Being in love is the most sweetest thing in the whole world. Love takes you to your dreamland. Everything is so wonderful. But, Alas! Love is not so rosy when you are breaking up with your sweetheart. BUT anyway we both know it and been avoiding this moment but the time has come. You know what I mean. We need to break up. This has been coming on for a long time, We just don't communicate like we used to. HECK, anyway doesn't matter since I decided to end it shitty. So let's skip the blame. Being single may not always be a bad thing i guess? Break-ups hurt us all, but at some level, you might even be relieved for getting away from a manipulative relationship :) Being single has its advantages & disadvantages. It is up to the person to be content with the choices one has made. Whether you sad, happy, lonely... even my ex and me doesn't talk anymore ( No longer friend )  it really doesn't affect me much i think ?   Life is too short to cry. So, I can only rely on myself, not somebody else because we are born alone and we are going to die alone so I guess this is just human nature? After getting sick of the same situation and people changed. Ohyeah, life is getting good and going to meet Terence perri tomorrow for job interview! Can't wait to save up for overseas trip during december and I finally gotta a new camera. LIKE FINALLY, photo will be more after 28th' USS halloween with loves and I really craving for dresses :( many many nice dresses please ! I NEED SHOPPING. Keep track of me @s_aymorelies. BYE

I'm half giving up ... really.

我們會更好的

Really can't wait to end my N' and start working in order for me to get a new camera and overseas trip. 

I also want to change my hair colour. I want something like red? brown?. 

okay, it's 20 august today and 3 more days to my anniversary again. 1 years and 8 mths .

 Happy 20 monthsary baby. 

Some of my friends been questioning me about I can keen on this relationship for so long. 

you see, my relationship isn't as perfect as your guys think and we used to be the on-off type and yes i gotta with another guy before so this 20 months isn't the proper counting so yes. I'm sure everyone have their own problem in their own relationship isn't ? I think that the whole point of being with someone is you can 

 talk to them and let go of everything, and even when you are at your worst, they still like you, they still want to speak to you and care about you even you don't.

 They will still forgive and forget . And, even though your guys are together for a long time i'm sure there's something you actually incredibly insecure about and they don't realize it but you can't say anything, because then they would know your weaknesses. Sometimes people lost interest because you put too much hopes in and end up getting disappointed. I know relationship aren't supposed to be easy. 

 I'm sure people treat another person based on how they treat them right ? As long as the person put in effort, you will too isnt ?  something like " I'm willing to make it work if you are. " Nobody would like when people give up so easily and I don't think there's ever really a right " time" to let someone go. If they mean something to you, you should try your hardest to keep them in your life no matter what. If that person can't forgive you then you shouldn't waste time over missing something in the past. Life changes, people grow up and grow apart, and you have to accept that because you see love is like someone fall for you for the wrong reasons and they still love you after all the hurt because they can't pick who they love. And even though we know we shouldn't love them, we do and always will, because there are just a small number of people in this world who will " get " us for reasons we can' explain, even when they shouldn't.

I don't know if we could be together in the future, maybe after his army life? maybe after his working life? You see happy ending doesn't include a guy or girl, maybe it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over freeing yourself up for something better in the future but still I wish we could. But I won't be so hard on myself because I know I will screw up. This few days I getting upset because you constantly keep on breaking the promise that you'll change about your bad habit but never will and every action of yours and everything you say now, I will have my doubts about it. Sometimes I would like somewhat distance myself from you, I'm sorry for being cold for this days but I really hate it when people are late for date but still not a million fights could make me hate you because I love you so much. I hope we could do more about the communication part because when communication dies, so does the connection.

Hi people. I'm not back for daily updating but I'm proud that one more day to 23rd and which is my 19 months with my boyf, YES. It's still counting...  And yes, just that we're easily affected both by emotions and sometimes those emotions might hurt us and suspicious about others' feeling but still our love is strong enough and always find ways to get back to each other. My boyfriend is very mysterious person and there are too many reason for him to be secretive. He's so deep and sometime I think I have to take a lifetime for me to understand him and talking about secretive he don't open up easily to people around him since he can't trust people easily but come close to say he's really a passionate person ( okay at times ) LOL. I mean like when he is doing something he really loves, he will put all his heart and soul into it and there's no middle ground.. Although he has a very tough outer shell but he also very soft inside and every time we quarrel his emotions run deep and I knows that just that he puts up a tough facade in order to not get hurt and always giving calm face is also another reason why people don't easily approach him but he will still give in to me and indeed very tough to get into his inner circle, but I guess I'm really lucky enough to make it there because he is one guy who is willing to sacrifice himself for me. The best part is out of all my exs he is one of the most loyal person I get, I don't know if he flirt with other girls but still he will always come back to me and this make me loved and I know where I stand.  blahh blahh blahh ~~~ yesyesyes.. My boyfriend jealousy super super HIGHHHHHH and he like to ask too many question but he's caring and super affectionate. I'm happy (;

okay, got to go. bye !

Happy Anni

Happy 23'rd , 18 months and still counting...


Happy anniversary,

I just want to say that I love you and thank you for all the love and happiness you've brought to me. You know how hard things have been for me through out all this months and I know you have been through the  same thing. 

And, how our relationship seems to be a struggle after another but there is one thing
that remains constant .. my love for you. Please don't get angry and don't ever compare you to my friends because you're different and you will always my priority. 






















Still remember 18 Dec ? our first movie together @ ceni and we went to smoke 
before catching tron and the first time you saw me get catch by hsa hahs ! 






23 Dec , you asked me to be your officially girlfriend. 25 Dec, Christmas celebration at your cousin house with Alvin' and co. 16 Jan, still remember those moment we went to east coast for BBQ with them and it's was so cold and you piggyback me and we spend our night lying on each other lap ? and those couple date we have on feb 19 at the cathay? we catch the black swan together. 21 April, source code. 29 April, Arthur. 13 may, Fast 5.  8 May, Thor. 






Our 1st anniversary, we catch The Tourist @ town again and it's the first time we dine together at Cedele and cny shopping. Not forgetting the most important day which fall on 14 Feb (: 




Our first valentine's, we had our dinner at Eltoro and you came to my school and fetch me ! I was so happy and you surprise me with a necklace which I am still wearing right now. 

You gave me so much to remember, I haven't been able to escape you. The first time we fought so badly till we nearly breakup after you came back from Batam & I was at Amourious with marcus & co, you cabbed down to show me how big your love for me and you were kneeling down w me. * meltz * ohmygod, i feel like crying now :'(  you make me so special, like I'm your one and only one and I always feel so happy being with you like this.  I love you because you bring the best out of me and you're the one holds the key to my heart. 

 Baby, you know what? I love your intelligence, cause you were smart enough to fall in love with me. <3 Still remember how we suddenly talk back after we broke? We meet up at amk hub for lunch and I suggest to eat new york but you were sick at that moment .. I was about to go after our lunch and instead of that you asked me to accompany you longer :)

 I'm so happy then we decided to catch The lucky one together and you hold my hand again during the movie and we got back together again and after a few week later, we quarrel again during mickey' bdea and we broke up.






But this time round is different, I hold you back before my birthday and that period of time you already book your air tix to HongKong and I suddenly feel lost and out of touch when I saw those girls we have been talking to. My heart misses a beat

We have both gone through so much in our lives; we've both been hurt and have lost trust in each others, but I ask you to give me a chance as I give you one. I don't ask for much, only for you to love me as I am and not to hurt me as I would hurt you because I really wish to be by your side and with no one else. 


Now, once again, you are back to my life and I do not know what the future holds for us but I'm glad you are back again. 


Maybe, in this lifetime, you will never know how much I love, care and cherish you but from this moment on, we have each other and all the time to be in each other's arms. So, When I say I love you it is truly meant .  


Iloveyou, NJT.

When love is real, it finds a ways

sorry i haven't been updating as often but im finally back.
If you haven been following me on twitter you haven known that my daily life was practically like boring...
I've been working for the past 4 days at suntec conversion hall with calver, sky and jun yang. (; yeah , the pc show from 7-10june .

Hall 603 , level 6.  Last day of it fair .
meet up with love after that night and gotten up the next day to town and end up dining at sushi tei which is like around evening ! hell man, i was so damn hungry as it was my first breakfast ? lunch ? okay dinner. LOL. And there's only two of us and the bill cost like bomb and then we head opposite 313 to get some drinks as its still early before catching the snow white & the huntman at 9.45pm. Movie was great and i get distracted by the timing because we wanted to catch the last bus but end up we cabbed home straight after movie.

Saw the piglet? hahs, love bought this back from hongkong and other than this i still got winnie the pooh and the chipmunks but still i love piglet because it's pink and it's a phone accessories ! So sick of my phone right because like boring especially i can't customize my iphone everything in pink and i haven't even repair my cracked screen. so many stuffs to do ); alright bye guys, it's time for me to catch my tiamo chocolate drama. BYE!

Courage means to keep working a relationship, to continue seeking solutions to difficult problems, and to stay focused during stressful periods. Time to start focus, buck up. Shall not let hardships disturb & no time to avoid problem.