17th Birthday

Hello! It's me. Anyone miss me?

If you didn't know about it yet, I'm offically 17 * 5 days ago *

I didn't manage to make my birthday a big one but I must say I've enjoy my time w my babe & ts.

Thou my babe & me have been like ... 5 yrs friendship but we rarely hang out on solos.  I don't know why maybe we like big group ? LOL.  so, yeah we've steamboat for dinner :) 

Look whose the birthday girl over there. LOL ! ignore my face . I didn't manage to eat a lot of foods but i swear the tom yam soup wasn't good that day and mickey was so busy grilling her pork meat. Justin and chengwai suppose to join us in awhile but i guess plan ruined or smthing ? idk. 

Cake that night was awesome. For now i'd just let you know, we freaking sat down at iluma rooftop for the cake cutting LOL. It's nothing like usual or normal type .. you know what i meant. I like the mango cream & there's some magic balls that will burst with some cheery ? strawberry ? idk what's that but i swear that taste SUPER SOUR . LOL  but still i just can't get enough of the yumyum cream HAHS. we got each of us one :)

I got myself 3 celebration, my friends & family side.

And bella the other night w brian & co and vic's friends came over and to my surprise she came down to meet justin's group and she know my bro. I got drunk and all the ladies were so high!

soon later, another group of my friends came and bottles seem to be like free and everyone was dare to blow 20 sec after table to table. 

And next day suppose to join my friends to hollywood then v4 but i got super bad hangover so i gave a skip.

 shall end my post with my pic here . bye guys 

當女人不在跟你吵架時，她已經不愛你了。
當女人不再對你嘮叨時，她已經對你死心了。
當女人不再對你流淚時，她已經對你心寒了。
當女人不再對你撒嬌時，她已經對你没熱情了。
當女人不再深夜催你回家時，她已經對你失望了。
當女人深夜不再等你時，她已經對你放棄了。
當女人不再向你解釋她的行為和想法時，她已經對你厭煩了。
當女人不再與你談及任何生活、工作的話題時她正在遠離你了。
當女人不再與你分享她的快樂時，她已經對你漠然了。
當女人不再與你分擔煩惱和麻煩時，她已經不信任你了。
當女人做任何決定都獨立處理時，她已經不需要你了。
當女人對你的沾粘自喜一笑而過的時候，她已經看透你了。
當女人在你身邊，一直的沉默、沉默，繼續沉默。
請你相信，她已經毫無留戀的要離開你了。

Naive

So much things been happening recently and so many images running thu my mind when I was bathing.
You see, It's easy to make promises but it really hard not to break it and whenever something happened all you think is about protecting yourself and avoiding instead of figuring out what the cause of all this problem.
All I can say, No one's perfect . Human are selfish including me. When in relationship, if someone truly loves you, they wouldn't constantly make you feel like your fighting for their attention but things might not turn out like what you expected. They eventually get tired and pushing away the one the used to care all because they get hurts once and they've learned and slowly they can't decide to keep or to let go. Therefore, how can we trust when too many people did us wrong? remember everyone of us got feeling too. For me, I realizes that with each tear, I only get stronger. No matter how rough the going gets but I've to be patient and wait which it's really hard for me. I can be scared to be affectionate at times. Trust me, I do. I got my imperfection side, Im stubborn & can be emotionally cold and intolerant and I really like to avoid problem especially fights or argument and I do get bored easy especially with the one word or one line replies or boring phone conversations I'll give those eh ? I don't care. cant be bother . whatever attitude and if i become bored and I feel encumbered by the relationship, I will not have a moment's hesitation about ending the relationship SOON or NOW because all i can say is I'm really really really a very very very impatient person. VERY . And, a person whom are very sensitive may be tough to communicate with me because of my so call not serious attitude ? i guess so?. And you see, most people are afraid to tell their partner how they feel because it might just mean nothing to them and slowly feeling started to fade, things get complicated ... and so on. All those hate, rate, shake, break ... everything. Maybe it's time to temporarily to get the person off your mind.

Keppel Bay

Hey guys
Term 2 , which mean holiday is over . Been really boring as usual & long since I did a detailed post anyway.
Meetup with bb for breakfast / lunch. Food was okay but ambience was good.
The best moment wasn't about the food and stuff is the moment when I'm together with him..
You've no idea how much I adore him, He never failed to make me laugh but at some point he's stubborn ! VERY.

Home around 5 in the evening, so then he called and complain about having stomachache and he said he miss me ! so sweet right ? hahs. It's been so long since I heard this from him .. I mean on the phone because we don't text / talk much often as he sleep during day and wake up during late night. so, the only time we have for each other is like weekend. Bet he's in a deep sleep so it time for my dinner :) bye guys

Fifteen Months of knowing you

Dear Diary,
I've been known to be short of words and you know this quite well right ? .
But as I'm typing this, I struggled with trying to " summarize" everything that I wanted or trying to say . You see~ When we first started going out, my friends & family even noticed me and would say, " You're smiling a lot, you must have had a good day." And, I'd blush & changed the topic .
Nothing much has changed because I still do all of this :) You know ... I always flipped open my lappy, went to facebook & checked his status for a good half an hour or even a day ( even I'm not in his friendlist ) sometimes I get mad, sad, angry, happy, amused, funny, sarcastic . All kind of emotions ! But then, what were you expecting ? Im a girl and I needs to feel appreciated to be happy.
No one else would understand our relationship, and no one else in this world would understand me the way you do , the things you did for me that far beyond expression that feeling inside me can't even explain. The only things I can say is no matter how long you has been gone, when you're back, nothing's changed. I still loved you.

Sorry I haven't been blogging ~
you know I'm not out everyday, thus, there's no photos for me to blog !
In fact, I spend most of my time @ home and maybe spending my weekend with my love
It's 10.21pm yet not bath and still sitting right in front of my lappy . HORRIBLE.
Who knew that I'm could be so lazy ? holy craps, my headache is giving me problem EVERYDAY ! .
I think I've used too much of my brain ! LOL . you've no idea how frustrating and stressful it is to let yourself study so hard yet you got your test back with so many mistakes ?! 
arghh ~ gonna end this entry NOW ! 

Busy with my life. Going to abandon this space of mine . I want to say goodbye & end here soon.
Maybe it's time to delete this blog & start anew fresh. New Facebook, New Blog, New twitter? hahs.
I really can't cope with my studies, by thinking of getting all your 5 subjects pass with flying colour & get into a good poly ? KILL ME PLEASE... but I don't want to get wasted 4 years in ITE .. you knows ... or either i've to go thu 2 years of ITE life. sigh. Im done slowing down ! It's time to buck up . bye.