I HATE DIS FEELING { ! }

todea hab our sandcastle buildinq ,, omfq .. is nt wad i expected lol -.-"
standinq under a hot sun & makinq ourself dirty nia ... freak it .
after everythinq ,, renie went-ed to anqie hse for showerinq
as jan came to my house to shower too ...
plan-ed to catch a movie after that ,, so went-ed to iluma .
watch-ed sis`t part ? yea i think . baby was late ._."
damn him ,, lauqh ! jkjk . the movie was touchinq & sad ,, but yet turn out funneh .
cos ? ,, erm . we'd made alot of stupid joke about it ;x
went-ed to buqis villaqe as renie
want-ed to buy tee as she borrow a tee from anqie is too loose for her .
after everythinq ,, was plan-ed to qo to vivo but in the end plaza .
damn it ,, alots of thinqys happened . will not mention about it .
& slack-ed awhile more ,, & finally home sweet home .
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baby :
you promises nt to let mi drop a sinqle tears ,, but yet ue didnt manaqe to did it .
ue suddenly made mi felt im just nothinq to you but a playtoy ? .
ue cry for another qurl as im still beinq a foolish buz concerninq ue.
seriously ,, i hate that feelinq .
i hate jealousy cos it kills lots ,, but i just coundnt control !
i dun wanna to said it out cos i scare it'll spoil our r/s ...
as for all ,, fwens & sis`t may think i'm rli stupid enouqh to continues wib ue
but wad im for ,, all i wish is ' LAST ' isnt that simple ? .
last doesnt mean i nid to suffer everythinq but it both of us .
baby ,, i didnt know wad are you thinkinq ...
but i hope dis time round ue meant wad you said ,, it just the 2nd day we std
& yet thinqys happened ... i didnt no wad ue wanna
prove to mi but hopefully you can made mi trust you once aqain
okay ,, simply . sayinq the truth : my feelinq is fad-inq .
i dun wanan to put all my heart inside dis r/s
cos i scare dis will b the ever nightmare i'd .
sowwiie ,, if i different from last time . mayb it nid time .
If you don't know,then ask me.
If you don't agree,then argue with me.
If you don't like, then say it to me.
But don't keep silent and judge me.
some ppl may told mi :
When you are in love and you get hurt, it’s like a cut...
it will heal, but there will always be a scar.
If you have love in your life it can make up for a great many things you lack.
If you don't have it, no matter what else there is, it's not enough.
while i didnt no dis will happened to mi anot
all i can say :
Love that we can not have is the one that last the longest,
hurts the deepest and feels the strongest.