Maybe ; Love me ? you shouldnt .
went-ed to yishun - amk - home .
thinqys as usual the same thinqy happened aqain & aqain . 6th time appear-ed .
didnt had the mood to tok about it ,, if it had no choice then i'll let qo even i know it do hurts
i realise tis is the 1st time ,, i put so much hope in a quy & the 1st quy i dun mind losinq everythinq
maybe im the one causinq him to become liddat ,, im not a qd gf .. i dun understand you well
had never had dis feelinq before ,,
seriously i can say im a honqster before but why am i treatinq him so differently ?
i chanqe-d so much just for a quy ,, never did so much ... as im thinkinq back ~~~
1st ; least than 5 quys msq mi .
2nd ; least hanging with fwens / gans
3rd ; spent-inq so much time with stead .
4th ; tryinq to hard to pull a r/s .
5th ; keep brk & patch back .
6th ; cry so much while shouldnt .
7th ; never had dis feelinq with other expect him
8th ; controlinq attitude & temper
9th ; never throw anger on stead
10th ; ask-ed for patch
etc ...
but yet it all useless ... im not trustable at all ,, i'd been tryinq hard to tell you how much iloveyou
but yet i didnt did it ... i fail ,, failure . you qonna soon & i just cant hold back . im feel im just useless
not i dun love you ,, it just that i counldnt face you ,, it hard .
when i heard your voice i feel lyk cryinq ,, i just doesnt wanna to let you know im cryinq .
i doesnt wanna you to blame yourself for makinq mi lyk dis ,, but i had say .
i bearinq my tears cause i doesnt wanan to let you qo ,, as ppl say ;
qirls cry mean they rli qive up ,, boys cry mean they truly luv her .
i doesnt wanna to qiv up ,, i doesnt wanan to cry ,, i wanna to show that im stronq .
am i wronq for doinq all dis ? or am i wronq for beeinq lyk that ?
not i doesnt wanna to patch with you ,, i wanna too & i always wanna .
but as i said ,, there a 1st time there will be the 2nd time & continues ~
& tis is the 6th time ,, there qonna to be 7th time ...
it rli rli veri hard to let qo cause it already been till tis day ,, but why must you avoidinq yourself ?
idw to hide it ,, seriously idw to hide it .. but why ? i just luv you ,, you understand ?
but why are you keep pushinq mi away & away ? further & further ? ,, are you rli sick of mi or somethinq ?
you had been puttinq so much effort in dis r/s but you always say you're tired ,, tired of wad?
tired of mi ? ,, maybe . cause i see that ,, but you continues bearinq with it . why ? cause i know you luv mi .
you dun have to prove ,, cause i can can see ... you did so much for mi but yet same thinq
you still wanna to qiv up ,, maybe .. sorry for beinq your burden .
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taq replies :

Xaiver : o.o ? oh ic

Rebecca : LOl who say -.- "