182 days still counting on

Dec 8, 2010 was the day I met the man of my dreams .

& now ...

Happy six monthsary baby!!!!! ♥

kayz . I'm here to give you one long & sweet post alright ? * with those broken english* HAHAHAS !

so , im gonna start this post with the " HI DEAREST "! ^^ thingy . LOL . I really have no idea how am i suppose to give you another sweet post & LONGGGGGGG post because as usual i'll always say thing like : Im sorry for all the disappointments I gave you, i hope it won't affect us ok? or like .. baby, you know you're so important to me & i'll never regret choosing to be with you & blahhh blahh blahhh . or like .. i love you , i really do .. dont leave me alright . LOL .

Nowadays am very in love with how i'm spending my days because i'm spending time with my dear boy!

esp those time i'll be occupying his bed to sleep or how i snuggle in his chest for the warmth hug / kisses & hiding under the blankets together .

It feel really sweet & loving because i've him around & i really feels like having our own home ...

sometime i didnt expect we'll get that far ... recalling back , remember how distant we were ?

we didnt even dared to talk to each other despite being side by side & sometime we need to communicate by sms . Damn pathetic . Now ? busying arguing with each other and make things from bad to worst .

and yeah , we fought the day before & thought that our meeting would be screwed but yet i can say that was that was the most memorable memories because that shows how much you really mean to me , how much i really love you & that became how much im afaird of losing you . Im really upset after i realised i cant get my doubts cleared & happened to know something that you didnt tell me . I've no choice but to think over and over again , sorting out everything myself . Cried and tossing here and there because i keep ask myself why do you want to hide ? is there any reasons that make you cant tell me or maybe you want get sometime for yourself ? . Im sorry if i invade your privacy too much .. i know i shouldn't done that because it may ruin the trust in between us . sorry .

still remember the first time you grabbed my hand when we were on the cab ? and , i stare at you & asked you : " zhor mo " . your reaction & reply ... CUTE TTM and the most awesome hug you gave me that night and those words we said to each other and many many most fond memories .  I love you deeply . I really hope that no more drifting in our r/s again , i wanna our love to be as sweet as GUMMY BEARS.

Im sure things will be better, no matters what's gonna happen in the future or how much time is left for both of us .. i'll always cherish those times i spend with you ^^ you make me feel extra loved . I really wan make you to feel like you're the luckiest guy in the entire world , the happiest one, the luckiest .. but for now , its still kind of hard because i've not change all my bad habits ): so wait a little while more alright ? im sure everything will be fine .

let's capturing all those wonderful moment we spend w each other .. iloveyou .