Fear

babyboy , 

im assume that when you're reading this, we might not be as close as before or perhaps we're not even been talking. I want thank that you'd actually respect the decision that i made and i feel this way is the way that i can finally say the thing to you which i couldnt say in front of you. You've been the best memories of my life and i hope this is instant and i know i've promised you before that i'll certainly never leave you alone but i dont know if i can live up to my promise because there's some prob in this relationship or even you may feel that i dont want anything that related to you... I finally felt the sourly feeling, just like how you feel. Im not avoiding you, i just want to settle down and think how am i suppose to stop all this nonsense. Now, we're already in a opposite situation.. just like when you always complain how much fun i can have with other guys even when we didnt really talk and the way i argue with you ? is the way you been argue with me now. I can see you're really unhappy or even feel like rant out all the things you been kept inside your heart ? You'll always be the one whom started apologizing yet i still think that " you apologies for ? just to shut this conversion or you dont even give me damn ? " I'll never be sacrifice. Things still never get any better and slowly it been leading me to a dark and lonely place which began to make me become so afraid and i lost trust .. i lost faith .. i got fed up with any girls who trying to get close even your friends. I become so sensitive to everything around me, i get moodswing easily or even feel like breaking up ! i feel that if i continue doing all this, you'll gonna push me aside and i really dont want this to happen ~ i hope you understand .   

your love , 

babygirl