Lifestory

Hello everyone, ha ha ha. This is like a random post which i've decided to do, i realized its been pretty long since i've cam whored. I rarely see solo pictures on my blog or either my facebook already.. So bored of my own face. I wish i had this face changer thing that would allow me to change my skin tone, eyes, nose, mouth as and when i like . Alright, since im so free ... what about having a post about my lifestory? okay.

you may find this very childish, even though i managed to keep away from my secret society (ss) brother & sister for about two years yet i returned to join a new ss last year because i was influenced by friends.

With these simple words, you can know " once you are in, it'll be very diffcult to get out. you can stay away from action, but you will always be regarded as a brother or sister . " I was deeply invovled in activities like running gambling, fight or even some stupid stuffs. When i was young, i was looked after by my grandparents who really doted on me.. although my schoolworks was satisfactory but still im not interested in studies instead i choose to hung out with gangsters and obsessed with becoming one. At the age of 13, i was accepted by a ss group and so on im together with them for almost one year ? and slowly i become from bad to worst .. i remember that was the time i pick up on stealing and smoking :O i was pestered by friends and of course i give in and then i took freely from the shop - makeups, clothings, wallet and etc. Then, i made a list of the things that i wanted and sometime i would even skipped classes with friends just to go rounding or stealing.I have my first boyfriend when i was the age 13 or 14, yeah. who will actually care about true love at the age of 13 ? i used to change my boyfriend every week or even days. Kinda stupid .. even you feel that you're in love but is that real ? hah ! Relationship can be great .. confusing .. bad  .. diffcult and breakups can be awful! but who will be stupid enough to virginity at the age of 13? Even you want, ask yourself  " are you ready? when is the right time to stop being a virgin and leave abstinence behind? Want to check out secondary virginity? Do you know the best lines to get a girl to have sex? " cmon , being in a relationship doesnt mean you need to give him / her your body. so .. what if you really pregnant? theres story like : 

The boy may said it was not his baby,even you know he was the only boy you slept with , or you may feel ashamed,trapped, immature or navie to know what to do . i was 15 when i really have a deep cut myself over a guy that i thought i was in love with and i had heard about other girls doing this. I had never had a desire to cut myself before, but i wondered if cutting really helped balance the emotional pain. So i took one penknife and rubbed the sharp edge back and forth on my forearm until i couldnt take it anymore. I found myself using penknife at home, school or outside beause i was so desperate to have control my tension and anger .. I even started sniffing gum, drink and club . Then i slowly i mixed with clubbers and more guys friends . However ... ( stay tuned )